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wow… been there yesterday… the final day of the three-day musical events.. simply wonderful. the music, the performance was just simple excellent.

its been a while since i last heard these non-commercial, true to the heart music… i can feel that the music really comes from the performer’s heart… their true thought and feeling. it felt warm and homely. felt that music could bridge all the gaps and bring everyone together. its just too good. wahahah

yesterday, there were 5 bands performing for the night, so, this is a brief review about them:

1. TeChung

Tibetan traditional music… soulful vocals, simple combination of Tibetan instrument and modern instruments gives a peaceful, serine music. they sing about love, peace for their country, people and humanity; they preach peace through music, they spread serenity with every note of their music. i think New age traditional-jazz fusion best describe them.

2. BalfaToujours

They are Cajun french residing in southern Louisiana of America, despite being an American, they are still very much Cajun french, they speak french and stuff. doing everything to preserve their culture. evrerybit of it. even their music. they plays Cajun music. which sounds almost like 60′S rock and roll. nice easy happy music… which makes everyone there dancing before the end of their first song. haha… this band kinda turn on the heat. everyone was so excited. their Pop-corn blues impressed me the most.. easy, light rhythm with blues solos, with combination of 2 fiddle, a windbox, acoustic guitar, bass guitar and drums give a wholesome blend of traditional and modern music. was extremely wonderful.

3. Lo Cor De La Plana.

i would say This is a traditional French "boy band"  they have amazing vocals… seriously… better than all the boy band shit on the market… even westlife is eating dust compare to them. just with their powerful vocals, and simple hand held percussion, they blew the stage with their lively performance. everything for them is an instrument. even the stage it self. hehe…. enjoyed it.

4. Afenginn

this band i have to say… impressed me the most… they are from Denmark, they call them self a "bastard-ethno band" with a combination of drums, bass guitar, benjo, a violin and a Saxophone, they play a fusion of punk, Nordic folk, world music and even jazz. With their entirely unorthodox approach and play-it-as-they-feel time signatures, their music was just FUCKING WONDERFUL!!!  their arrangement and showmanship was explosive. especially the bass player.. he was damn good… scaling through out their whole show…. damn… really impressive. the benjo player was also NUTS!!! he jumps, head-bang and ran all over the stage… damn damn damn…. they are just so COOL… waaaahahahah… couldn’t have enough of them.

5. Kenge Kenge

fifth and final band… the African Kenya band… their native music was explosive… better fast explosive beats was their main weapon… dancing and rap singing was really their specialty… not even a USA rapper can come near to their level… they stage up a wonderful cultural + music show with combination of dancing, culture practices and cultural music…. was so wonderful.. their appearance brings the festival to a climax… everyone was just on their feet… dancing… head banging.. no one could just sit still and deny Their infectious beats… was so wonderful.. hahah…. even the old aunties are dancing as well… damn… couldn’t believe my eyes.. this band is seriously SOLID.

after watching all those performance… i felt contended… its like food for the soul. all stress gone. haaaha… I’m glad i went there… i will definitely go next year. U wanna join?

PEH 7376 a.k.a. greeny… has been my loyal companion for 5 years…. served me so well without complaining. i like him.

Greeny is an Mini car manufactured by Perodua equip with a 850c.c. heart. small but strong. yes… strong hearted. together we had conquer many places in Malaysia… many many.. i couldn’t recall. places like Cameron highlands, genting highlands, Gunung jerai, Penang, Sungai petani, Kuala Lumpur, Seremban, perlis, ipoh and etc etc… too many to mention. both of us left our trail behind those places, and i felt is an achievement for both of us..

last week, when i travel back from KL, i notice a small leak of lubricant from the engine on the floor the next morning. i suspected it was from my engine cap. cause occasionally some lubricant may spilled out from the cap after a long journey. so i didn’t really bother about that. but later on, i noticed that more and more lubricant is leaking from my car, there must definitely be something wrong with my car… and so… i pop open the engine cap… and check the lubricant level.. so it very very low…. so i knew the lubricant was leaking out from some where.

i called the mechanic.. my car was hospitalized for 2 days… his engine and gear box was removed and overhauled… the mechanic told me… the car’s engine is almost at the end of its life span… it wont last for a long time de… at that moment.. i really felt sad… its like I’m losing one of my close friend.. despite my disappointment.. my dad ask me to consider to change to a better and newer car.. but i refused… cause greeny is a gift from my parents and he has been loyal to me for such a long period of time… i wont have the heart to sell it away…

so… i seek solutions to solve greeny’s health problem… the best was  is to give greeny a better and stronger heart.. a heart from his siblings… a 1,000 c.c. daihatsu twin cam engine.. from japan… i think it’s the best i can offer to my greeny.

no matter what… i wont sell u away… i really love u greeny… please be strong… please hold on while I’m looking for a better heart for you.

Notice greeny at the back.. giving so much without complaning..

The most beautiful place me and greeny had seen…

Yes… greeny brought us here…

Yup… my hair…. the story about it…

I think around Jan 07, i made up my mind, telling my self that "hey… why not try keeping long hair and see how it turns up?" and so i kept.

initially… it turns out to be a bit weird looking and ugly… but as it grows… i kinda like it when it reaches a certain length. nice, fluffy hair.

of course.. some people do bug me about my hair… people keep telling.. hey go and cut ur damn hair… look very long and untidy; hey u.. go cut ur hair, student cannot have long hair. especially my parents, grand ma and some lecturers…. (especially when i dean didn’t even says a word about it… that’s pissing me off) haha.. but i dun give much of a damn… i just keep growing my hair… haha…

i do get some compliments as well saying that my hair was nice and suit my face… i thanks u all for this nice compliment that "evens" all the trouble i go through while having my long hair. haha.. as u all know… i also plays a bit of rock music and drums. so having long hair kinda indirectly gives me the rocker image when I’m in stage. not only the audience will enjoy watching, even my self and my band mates also enjoy head banging a bit with long hairs… (although one of them is bald…hahah)

Until one fine day…. i got an Masters project offer in USM, at the interview, the first thing my prof told me is: "go cut your hair"… i was stunt… disappointed.. of course if i could… i would like to maintain my hair as long as possible.. but for the project offer and my future, i told her : "yes… i will" and we laughed it off.

so.. i kept my hair for another week… for a performance my friend heng lih asked me to helped him to play for his teknologi industri night. so… i did head banging for the last time. with my beloved long long hair… haih…

so the past weekend… i went back alor star… knowing that these were the very last days of my long kept hair…. with a heavy heart… i went to the barber to "crucify my beloved hair that meant so much to me… felt so much pain in my heart.. it had been through with me through thicks and thins… haih.. watching strands of my hair falling down to the ground with every pass of the merciless shaver above my hair…

after 15mins of torment.. the process ended… i turn from The rocker me back to the nerdy me…. back to square one. and i say to my self… fuck it… it’s over… I’m gonna bear with it no matter what. i bid good by to my long hair on the floor and drove off.

i will miss my long hair…. but for my future…. u have to be sacrifice for a while… u will be restore in the future… I SWEAR…

Jan 2007…. short hair still… just made decision..

March 07… growing in progress…

May 07… made some progress.. hair coming in to shape.. 

June 07… hair in shape.. not in perfect condition yet.

September 07… Finally… the long hair that i always wanted..

Long hair in action… hehe…

The night before i cut my hair… fuck…

Finally… it’s done…. back to square one.

I dedicate this post to my beloved hair… bye bye…

yesterday… while i was talking to my friend… she mentioned The word escapism. the term is define as a is mental diversion by means of entertainment or recreation, as an "escape" from the perceived unpleasant aspects of daily stress. It can also be used as a term to define the actions people take to try to help relieve feelings of depression or general sadness. crap… I’m talking a bit too serious de.. hehe…

from what is see… the relation between music to escapism to science is as below:

Music, i will say it is a very very good hobby if u were not the extremist type… hehe… practicing goth, black metal culture and dark rituals. it is good that one get indulged and involved in it. especially when u playing it or performing it on stage, it makes u feel like…. u are a rock star, u are expressing ur feelings and ur emotions through music. the music represents u; and u are the music. it makes u forget all ur busy daily routine, stress, responsibility and etc. it makes you feel high and excited without the need of drinking and taking in drugs… hehe…. so for me i think its a form of escapism from our daily hectic life style and piles and piles of shits u have to go through. trust me…. music is very very fun wahahaa…

ok… by this time.. maybe u all reading this may feel like : " BORING…. why am i reading this??" if u had this thought in ur mind.. then i suggest u to stop reading the rest of the post. cause i’m gonna talk about relation between science and music.

the two major similarities i saw between music and science is ANALYSIS  and APPLICATION.

In playing music, one need to analyze the songs in different expect in order to play it well for instants, chords, beats, rhythms, solos, feel,  mood, bla bla bla…. …. .. . …. ..  every single aspect of the song will enable us to play better music. whereas science, analysis is DAMN essential  in every single expect of it. it has to go through tonnes and tonnes of analysis in every single parameter through out the whole project. for others i don’t know. but for me.. i found analyzing music and analyzing science shares the same analysis technique(brain work) that works for both. hehe…  for instants, the most common 5W - Who, Where, When, What, Why? applies for both. if one play music, he must ask him self before playing the song,

Who am i playing the song for(target audience)?

Where am i playing it (occasion, stage setup) ?

When am i gonna insert correct fill ins and solos (improvisation)?

What am i gonna do to makes this song sounds better (output, sound quality, balancing)?

Why am i playing the music this way (improvisation wise- stacking, feels, and etc) ?

As for science, the 5W applies this way….

Who had previously done this work (reference to previous work)?

Where does the process happen (in situ, ex situ, in vivo) ?

When does the process happen (cell cycle, reaction phase etc) ?

What can be done (process modification, analysis, insertion, etc etc)?

Why doing this (process, protocol, component used)?

lets talk about the consensus concept of application between music and science. this is a bit simple. i’ll cut it short. in both worlds (music and science), there are a lot of techniques available, it is up to u to apply, or modify different technique to your own advantage. for instants, music, applying different techniques may give u different moods and feels of the songs, and may make The song sounds nicer or more terrible.

whereas for science, applying different technique enable us too gain efficiency on different processes or reaction; it also enable us to get a better view of the desire aspect in an more informative way. hehe… i think thats sums up the common relation between science and music… hu hu…

hope u all enjoy reading this post… haha… i know its boring

hehe… lately a lot of nice things happen around me.. i got good results for my final sem (inclusive of an A+ for research wahahah!!) and the best of all…. my band.. the cutter freaks…. nauil a few shows in our campus… really enjoy the shows that we had played…

ok… talking about the band… still the same people… Khairil on vocals and guitars, Richard on bass and guitars, sunder on bass and guitars, me on vocal and drums, and finally.. our new member… zul (a.k.a. monkey man, zaitun, quadah, mat kepit….) our lead guitarist… brings new bloods and ideas to our band… he really inject us with new materials  that made our band evolved so much…. genre of music… style of playing.. wow… awesome.. he also taken off some load from khairil so that he cabn focus totally on singing… which is so so awesome…  together, as a five piece band, we start off as the "new" or "evolved" cuttuer freaks..

last saturday, we played at first beat vol 4… the crowd was awesome… very supportive… and at one point.. we thought we were actually rock stars, kinda enjoy the feeling… hahah… (soik sendiri) call me whatever u want… but we really enjoyed the show this is actually the first time, we really enjoyed performing… every single one of us were excited and almost in an "trance" state hehe… PEOPLE LOVE US… we were shower with good, amazing feedbacks… which made us feel so happy… make us wanna go further… yes… further… personally.. i dowan this band to end like that after everyone graduated and leave aimst… i love this band… i want it to be there forever….

and to all of my band mates.. really nice to hang out with u guys… funny…crappy… the times we spend at lang studio.. all the silly nick names and stupid jokes… the sisha smoke machine… dunhill… asikin…. haha…. unforgetaable moments… haha… i really hope i can stay here longer… but… i had my future take care of… of course.. music is my life… but… snap back to reality… had to move on to further my studies….. but u guys have my promise… i will be back for sure if there is a gig or show waiting… hehe…

"Seize the day"

speaking about life… a famous line by forest gump, "life is like a box of chocolate, u wont know what flavor u gonna get the next piece of chocolate u choose" but i like my way of saying which is a bit improper, but i think its fits my life and every single shit i’m in, so i quoted–> "no ones dies a virgin, life fucks us all" its true in a way that eventually, some point in our life, we get fxxked so bad, that we cant even do anything, just bend down and enjoy the fxxx… thats all i can do… helpless… but through all this fxxing… maybe, or somehow, u will learn to protect ur self from getting fxxx again.. i learned my lesson in a hard way.

being nice to people is good, but sometimes, when u be too good and kind, people tend to take advantage on u, thats the scenario i’m in… god and all the religion tell us to be good and kind to people, be honest towards ur self, Honor and dignity bla bla… but i doubted… being nice and ended up getting FUCK.. yes… FUCKED… inside out, upside down then back inside again… that bad… really… being nice can sometimes be easy and so hard… maybe i should stop being nice and just become a fucking bastard that dun give any flying fucks to anyone… it’s easier… cause i wont get hurt that bad.. i really doubted… not only me… some of my friends which are also in the same shoe as me, getting fucked for being nice.. damn…. whats wrong with this world ??? a world that only the STRONG, RICH,WELL QUALIFIED will survive… actually… i really dunno whats the purpose for me writhing this post.. maybe i’m really getting sick of life? maybe is my mid-life crisis or stuff? or i’m expressing my anger through an electronic medium? i dunno… confused… i really feel weak and old… hai…

I’ve seen so many things… most of it i ignored but some involving me… yes me… been through so much of pain… it’s even more excruciating when u even found out that people can lie to u and keep u in the dark for 1 year plus… a bloody big play back… betrayed.. i’m that type of person that like to be my self… just my self… but people is really taking advantage over this… fuck the world man… it’s really very hard to be nice… fuck it…

i’m in the lab… yes… the lab…. it’s 7pm… still have loads of work to be done… this had been going on for a month or much…. i dont know… i cant recall.. exhaustion is all i felt… it’s really killing me… i need a break… FXXX the indian lecturer that had given me so much problem.. i’ll prove to them that i can be way much better than the expected…. FXXX them!!!

When you were here before,
Couldn’t look you in the eye
You’re just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You’re so fuckin’ special

But I’m a creep,
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doin’ here?
I don’t belong here

I don’t care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul

I want you to notice
when I’m not around
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special

But I’m a creep
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doin’ here?
I don’t belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She’s running out again
She’s running out
She runs runs runs runs…
runs…

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You’re so fuckin’ special
I wish I was special

But I’m a creep,
I’m a weirdo
What the hell am I doin’ here?
I don’t belong here

I don’t belong here…

there are 3 reason that are able to drive me to post a blog, first, ultimate boredom, second, i think it’s out of an important annoucement, and third, is when i felt something and i have no one to share with. so i choose to post it on the net, so who wver want to read, ur welcome, and maybe will forget it in a while, i dun care…. i just wanna write something tonight!!!

had any one ever felt a great loss in their life that seems never to recover? hurts so much and u cant even show a singlt thread of pain and sorrow on ur face? shit does happens sometimes… especially when something u hope for, just loss in ur life.. just like that… out of some stupid minute reasons… hai… at the mean time, it’s hard to cope with, kinda need some time to learn to adjust back to the normal state, "learn" really… i must learn… i’m too use with those life… hai… i really dinno what to say. maybe as other people always says, let time do the magic….

maybe i should divert my attention to some others things… such as music and academics.. hopefully i can make it through… wish me luck

just a brief introduction on our band… it consist of four dudes…

Kharil - Vocal, Guitars

Richard - guitars

Sunder - Bass/ Guitar

Me - Drums

       Potential new menber - Zul (hehe… ur most welcome)